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21 May 2010 @ 04:00 am
Go often to the house of thy friend; for weeds soon choke up the unused path.  
So. I haven't updated since last October. Seven months is...a really long time. It's gotten to the point where it's been so long that I don't even know where to begin. What's important and what's not, what you all care about and what you don't. Or whether anyone even gives a shit. But...I'm still here, for anyone who does care.

Let's see. There's really no point in rehashing everything that's happened in the last seven months. But hey, here are some highlights. I'm still living in an apartment with nickelodeon, and things are excellent. We make awesome roommates, even if I am terrible about remembering to do the dishes. We're ridiculously similar in so many ways. I can be my ridiculous nonsensical self with her, and not only does she tolerate it, most of the time she joins in. It's fabulous.

In January the two of us took a trip to Reykjavik, Iceland. It was my first trip outside of North America, and my first big vacation without my parents. And it was an amazing trip. The country itself lies on the border between tectonic plates, so there are active volcanoes and earthquakes that shape the land. We visited waterfalls, glaciers, geysers, and fissures created by the plates moving apart. We went horseback riding through the countryside on Icelandic Horses who have been isolated on the island since they were brought there hundreds and hundreds of years ago. We went caving in a lava tube and heard a traditional ghost story in complete darkness. We ate traditional Icelandic food and fell in love with Skyr, a yogurt-like product famous for being high in protein and low in calories. We bathed in thermal pools. We stood on black sand beaches and watched the waves roll in. We went hunting for the Northern Lights. The sun rose at 11am and the sunsets seemed to last for hours. In short, it was a once-in-a-lifetime experience, and I'm so glad I went. There's a TON more I could say, but...this is already going to be a ridiculously long entry.

Other than that...let's see. I'm still working at Barnes & Noble, although I really need to get a real job. The problem is that I love working at B&N. The people I work with are awesome, and I just...love books. The problem is the pay, obviously. I'm working part time and getting an hourly wage. Boo. The other problem is that I have no idea what sort of job I'm even looking for, and I'm really not looking forward to the whole job search thing.

Oh! Also! serasarahhhh has come to visit us twice in the last couple months. She needs to move up here and live with Steph and me. It would only be the best thing ever.

AND! Last week I turned 24. I feel old. It's BIZARRE.

AND, AND! I'm obsessed with How to Train Your Dragon. Great movie. Worth a mention.

I could probably ramble for a lot longer about my life, although that's not a whole lot more going on. I'm still RPing at mallowmateys, which is an excellent time. I spend a lot of time doing that. Haha. All right, I think I'll wrap this up here. I'm going to actually try to update more often now. I was reading through some of my diaries from when I was in middle and high school, and I love being able to look back and see what I was doing at different points in my life, and looking back on my LJ does the same thing. And I want to be able to look back on this later. So...yeah. Updating more often is now a legitimate GOAL!

I missed you, flist. How the hell have you been?
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09 October 2009 @ 04:51 am
Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness.  
I haven't updated in quite awhile, and I think it's about time. I actually have things to update about. I actually have a life. Who would have thought it, right? I'm fairly certain that no one even reads this anymore, but for the few who do, I thought I'd just give a little update about what's going on in my life.

Starting in September, I moved out of my parents' house and into a little apartment with nickelodeon. So far it's working out great. We have a lot of the same habits (we really need to take out the garbage and put the dishes away but whatever), and we have nearly the same taste in food, plus the same sense of humor...basically we just have a good time all the time. I really couldn't have asked for a better roommate.

I'm still working at Barnes & Noble, which I love, although I do need to start thinking about getting a "real" job sometime in the relatively near future. I haven't actually taken any steps to do so yet, beyond buying like five books at B&N on how to choose the best career for you, and I really have no idea what I want to do, but as much as I like working at B&N I can't work there forever. Not on $8.25/hr at least. I just wish the economy weren't so shitty right now. Worst time ever to have just graduated from college, right?

Other than the new apartment and work I haven't had a TON going on in my life. One of the most exciting things to happen this week was my housewarming gift from my parents arriving- a brand new queen-sized mattress set. It's ridiculously comfortable and...takes up most of my tiny bedroom. But I don't even care because it's amazing.

And I guess there might be something a little more exciting than the mattress. I tried out for an a cappella group earlier tonight. Without some kind of musical outlet, I always get kind of depressed. My parents are in an a cappella group and have invited me to sing with them several times, but everyone in the group is my parents' age and it's just...not for me, I guess. But a few weeks ago I was at my mom's cousin's wedding, and I got to talking to a random guy who just happened to be in a small, Boston-based a cappella group that was looking for new members. I explained that I'd been in an a cappelle group in college, and had even been musical director for a semester, and without ever having heard me sing, he told his group about me and they invited me to come audition. I've said before that singing is absolutely my favorite thing to do in the entire world, but singing in harmony with other people who love it as much as I do is as close to heaven as I think is possible to get without heavy drugs. So anyway, I think the audition went well, and now I've got my fingers crossed and am waiting to hear back from them.

Also! Last week I went on my first date in fucking ages, and while I'm not sure it will go anywhere, the guy is really nice and we have a ton in common, so I'm willing to give it a shot at least. We're going out again on Sunday. I'm a little bit afraid that he's more into me than I am into him, and my gut is telling me that he's getting a little overzealous, but I also really like the attention, so...I guess we'll just see how this goes. I'm absolutely incompetent when it comes to the opposite sex, so this is almost...an experiment, I guess. Or at least some kind of learning experience, if nothing else.

My mom and I also finally started up that blog I mentioned in my last entry...ages and ages ago. It's about me getting out on my own and her dealing with the empty nest and figuring out what to do with her life. I know a lot of you are in the same stage of life as I am, or at least close to it, and if not then maybe you're closer to my mom's stage in life, so maybe you'd find it interesting? Anyway, I'm not saying I'll defriend you if you don't read it, but I think it's worth a glance or two. It's called Launch/Relaunch. So. Yes. Check that out.

This weekend I'm heading back to my parents' house (okay, I'll say it, heading home) to look after the puppy while my parents are down in Jersey. I'll need to take some pictures of her, because she's getting bigger every day and I can't even believe how adorable she is. I think I've become a dog person.

So that's what's going on with me, I guess! Look at me, all grown up and having a life. It's almost surreal. It seems like just yesterday I was in college and so depressed that I could barely function. I had trouble looking into the future and seeing something positive, and holy shit, here I am. And it's awesome.
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07 August 2009 @ 05:15 am
Whoever said you can't buy happiness forgot little puppies.  
I've been absolutely terrible about updating, but here's a quick update because there are exciting things afoot! I'll make a list. I like lists.

1. I finished my summer class on Wednesday, which means I'm officially done with college! I'm pretty sure I got an A or a B, which is excellent.
2. nickelodeon and I are going to look at an apartment this weekend, and if it looks good, then perhaps we will be moving there next month!
3. Ive been really lame and depressed recently so I went on hiatus from all my RPs. I'm working on getting myself back where I want to be, and hopefully will be back to RPing in no time!
4. My mom and I are starting up a mother/daughter blog about us both figuring out to do with our lives now that I'm out of college and now that my mom has an empty nest. Tentative title: Launch/Relaunch.
5. PUPPY. We got. A two month old Miniature Australian Shepherd today. her name is Layla, and she's pretty much the cutest puppy I've ever seen. I'm totally in love with her already. *__* OBSERVE:



That is all for now. :D
11 July 2009 @ 07:18 am
I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night.  
So I haven't posted in something like two months, since I graduated from college. Unfortunately I haven't been reading my flist either, so I've been hugely out of touch, and for that I'm very sorry. how is everyone? What's going on in your lovely lives?

As for me, I'm back working at Barnes & Noble, which I actually really enjoy. I'm still living at home, But nickelodeon and I are going to look at apartments starting TOMORROW, and I'm excited. I also started my summer class, which is called "Laughter: A Literary Approach". I hate it. The professor is a priest and I am really not a fan of his teaching style or the material he picked. he doesn't seem to really be making any kind of a point with any of what we've done so far and it's just. Lame. I'm the only person in the class who ever says anything intelligent, and that's frustrating. But whatever, just four more weeks and I'm done with classes for AS LONG AS I PLEASE.

Other than that, I'm going to Baltimore next week with nickelodeon to see maxine_chan and aliquot and go to see hp6 and also go to Otakon! I'm excited. :D

Anyway! I kind of wanted to give everyone a mini UPDATE on my life, but the REAL reason that I'm posting is that I really want to get back into writing again, so I AM TAKING FIC PROMPTS!!!!

SO! skedaddle on over to my writing comm, almostfaemous, where I've posted an entry in which you can make your requests!

And I really am interested in how you all are doing, I promise. I'm really going to try to do better at reading my flist starting now, okay? ♥
17 May 2009 @ 03:16 am
Put yourself on view. This brings your talents to light.  
The last two days have been pretty excellent, which is brilliant, as they were my last two days at Drew University.

On Friday morning I woke up at 9:30, which is really early for me, and drove three minutes down the road to the hotel at which my parents were staying (I just totally rewrote that sentence so that it didn't end in a preposition, as I almost have an English degree and feel I should pay attention to that kind of thing). Anyway, we had breakfast and then I went to a rehearsal for chorale. One of the things that I've loved about chorale is that we sing at every graduation, so I've gotten to see all my friends graduate over the years (except for last year, when I ran away before graduation out of shame), and I looked forward to singing at my own graduation all four years of college. Anyway, rehearsal until about noon, and then I attempted to clean my room a bit before my sister and her boyfriend (whose name is Beau, isn't that a brilliant name?) arrived! My room was a fucking disaster area and I did the best I could with the low level of energy and motivation I had.

We went to Panera for lunch, and it was delicious, as per usual. Chicken Caesar sandwich. So good. Then I had more rehearsal before the Baccalaureate service (which, for those of you who don't know, is sort of an all-inclusive religious service celebrating graduation). The service itself was wonderful. All the readings were really cool, and I got to sing a couple of awesome songs and my family was there and it was basically excellent. Then we went out to dinner at Applebee's, which I always enjoy immensely.

Then we decided that since it was my graduation weekend, there needed to be some celebration. Most of my graduating class, I imagine, was doing the same on campus, getting schwasted and reminiscing and celebrating with their friends, but instead of drinking with my friends, I did with my family. I like them better than most of my friends anyway, but don't tell them that. Anyway, we all holed up in my parents' hotel room and played drinking games and had many good times and good conversations and watched ridiculous YouTube videos and it was basically fantastic. And! I was still able to wake up at 8:30 this morning to get ready for graduation!

Showered, my mom ironed my dress and my gown, I drove back to campus, got my fancy little card, from which my name would be read, proclaiming that I would be the seventh person alphabetically in my class to walk across the stage. We lined up, we processed, I sneaked out of the line and sat with the chorale instead of my class, and the ceremony began.

Having been to three graduation ceremonies at Drew over the years, I pretty much knew what to expect, but for some reason (probably because it was MY graduation) I was so much more captivated by the speakers (the class speaker proclaimed "be a nerd", which I think is great advice), and the ceremony seemed to be half as long as any of the others. When they called the College of Liberal Arts students up I found my place in line, the Dean who helped me out when I was failing classes because I was too depressed to go to class two years ago read my name and shook my hand, I walked across the stage, receiving an empty diploma thingamabob (I am brainfarting on what those are called) shaking hands with the president of the university (who loves my a cappella group), and attempting to not drop my hat, which fit fine until I needed it to behave. The picture the official photographer took of me as I left the stage will be of me holding my cap on, lest it attempt to escape.

Chorale sang twice during the ceremony, the second time being the Alma Mater, which I'm glad I know, because I feel like a lot of people have no idea what their college's Alma Mater is, or even WHAT that is. When the ceremony was over, my chorale professor, who I met a few days into my freshman year, and who loves me and was overjoyed that I was back this semester, gave me a hug and told me that he was proud of me. I found my parents and godparents and sister and Beau and godsister and godbrother and we proceeded to take way too many photos. I should upload one and post if for you once I get home.

Anyway, then I returned my cap and gown, and my dad practically forced me to drink some of the champagne they were offering to pretty much everyone. I'm not the hugest fan of champagne, but it was celebratory, and they had orange juice so I made a mimosa and it was excellent. I saw my advisor and she hugged me and told me that she was proud of me and reminded me of the conversation we'd had last year around this same time about me not graduating and how it didn't matter. She's really cool, and I'm really glad that she was my advisor.

Anyway! After that, Family, Godfamily, and Beau headed to the Macaroni Grill for delicious foodstuffs and gifts. The Godfamily gave me a generous gift card to IKEA, for use in furnishing the apartment I plan on getting with nickelodeon once I'm back in Massachusetts. Such a perfect gift really. Then my parents gave me a RIDICULOUSLY generous amount of money to go toward a new car. I've never had a new car before, and I am so excited. Not just about the car, but about starting my life and...it's just really exciting.

After lunch, we headed back to Drew and packed up my dorm room, which took absolutely no time at all with all nine of us working together. I said goodbye to The Cave, which is what my friends and I called it, and headed back to the hotel, where the nine of us just sat and talked and drank and ordered Domino's and generally had an excellent time. I kind of fell asleep before everyone left, though, and woke up at about one, still in my clothes, with the lights out and my parents asleep in the other bed. Whoops. So then I was completely sober and couldn't sleep, so here I am, chronicling the weekend for posterity.

At one point today, my dad said "You do realize that all these people are here because they love you, right?" meaning my Godfamily and, of course, them, and it just made me feel loved and important and...I don't know. I don't often feel that way, so it was really nice.

And my mom just woke up and told me to turn off the computer and try to get some sleep, as we're driving back to Massachusetts in the morning, so I should probably wrap this up. I'm sorry this entry is so long, I got a little bit carried away, I think.

Anyway! I love you all, and I'm really happy today, and that is excellent. I'm (nearly) a college graduate! What the fuck!
15 May 2009 @ 04:24 pm
Take chances, make mistakes. That's how you grow. You have to fail in order to practice being brave.  
So here's the thing.

I was supposed to graduate tomorrow and be done with school forever, or at least until some-odd years down the line I decided that I wanted to get my master's in something-or-other.

But this is not the case.

Oh, I'll still get to walk at graduation tomorrow, wearing my cap and gown, with family and friends there to congratulate me and all that, but I won't be receiving a diploma, and I'm not done with school.

APPARENTLY, at the very beginning of the semester, my advisor and the registrar noticed that I was two credits short in my major (because of classes being dropped or failed, I guess), and concocted a plan in which I would take a summer course. However, they neglected to tell me this until WEDNESDAY, when I sent off a quick e-mail to my advisor to make sure that I had all my ducks in a row.

First of all, I'm totally pissed at the administration for dropping the ball and not letting me know what was up. The plan they've worked out for me is acceptable, I guess, but I would have liked to KNOW ABOUT IT. My advisor told me that she'd assumed that the head of the department had contacted me about it, and I assume that she assumed that my advisor had told me, and basically, they just suck a lot and I'm angry and extremely disappointed because I just want to be fucking DONE. I was looking forward to, you know, STARTING MY LIFE, but instead I have to scramble to register for a course at a college near home and make sure that it's ACCEPTABLE and PAY for it and...none of this is the end of the world, obviously. I was just excited to be done, and my family was proud of me, and I was proud of myself, for coming back from fucking up so badly and making it through, and now I find out that I'm not quite finished. And the people in charge knew about this the whole time and neglected to tell me.

This just. Sucks.

And I'm late for a performance, so I'm just gonna. Post this and run. Be back later, kids. ♥
08 May 2009 @ 10:36 am
There it was, hidden in alphabetical order.  
...I think I just finished all my work for college.


I hope.

Now to sleep for 100 hours.
06 May 2009 @ 10:30 am
Education's purpose is to replace an empty mind with an open one.  
I keep meaning to update, but then there's so much that's happened that I don't even know where to start. I feel like I've changed so much over the last year or so, and so it's really hard to pick up where I left off. This is me pretending to start over for a second.

Hi! I'm Fae. At least on the internets. My real name is Nicolle, but most of my friends call me Nikki. You may call me whatever you like, but round these parts I'm usually Fae.

I'm graduating from college in less than two weeks. Holy fuck. I still have eleven pages worth of papers to write, and a final, but then I'm DONE WITH SCHOOL FOREVER. Well. Maybe not forever, I might decide to get my master's eventually, but for the moment and for the discernible future, I am SO close to being done. It's both exciting and terrifying.

And I'm not sure what else to say. There are so many things that I could write about, from my feelings about the classes that I've been taking to the awesome things I've been doing with my friends, or my a cappella group (which I love more than anything in the world), or how fucking cool my parents are, or of course, fandom stuff...what I've been reading and watching and roleplaying and all that. And then there's things like how I feel about myself which is always weird to talk about, or how I feel about my life. I'm just not sure how to balance it out, I guess. It makes me feel better to write about shit, but I haven't done it in such a long time that I kind of forget how. Isn't that silly? I'm minoring in writing. Ha HA.

Well anyway, I'm not going to spam your flists with me rambling uselessly anymore today. Instead! Have two YouTube videos, because I am an attention whore. First is the CompSci project which I just turned in last night, and the second is my friend Nick and I singing "A Whole New World" because we're Disney Kids 4 Lyfe.

Plz to be enjoying.

CompSci project! I think this is worth watching if just for the ridiculous voices. I voice a chicken, a hare, a tortoise, and a hamster in this lovely gem. It's pretty much retarded, but whatever.

And here is Nick and me singing "A Whole New World". It's not perfect, by any means, but I think we sound pretty good. Someone on YouTube accused us of lip synching, so I think that's a good thing? I be the ladyperson on the left.

Anyway. It's 11AM and I haven't slept yet. OOPS! :D

ETA: It is now past noon, and I still haven't slept. WTF is wrong with me??? Anyway, I recorded myself singing "Seasons of Love" from RENT for empath_eia, and so I'm posting it here too, just in case anyone is le interested. Here ya go.